Lately, I've been hanging on to "the wagon". But in the last few weeks, I flat out fell off of it and got ran over by it. Repeatedly.
I will be the first to admit that I've been a bit too generous with myself. October was such a busy month with trips, birthdays, and food opportunities. My weight has been yo-yoing from as low as 152 to as high as 160. That can't be healthy! All in the span of a few weeks. I let special events, like my birthday, turn into an entire weekend of eating whatever I want. That's happened two weekends in a row and it's showing on the scale... and on my sillouette!
Going into the holiday season now, I can't afford to slip any more. I weigh more right now than I did this time last year (only by a few pounds, but still...). My maintenance is slowly slipping and I really don't want to start an upward trend. I don't feel as good as I used to, not as motivated. I thought it was just getting used to maintaining, but it seems I've just gotten back into some old habits with food and ordering whatever I want.
So I need a plan. Fast. I'm not about to let a year and a half of hard work start to slip. Surprisingly, my November doesn't look as chaotic as I would have expected. Randy is out of town this weekend so I'm on my own (aka no restaurant food). The following weekend we're going to Williamsburg, and the weekend before Thanksgiving I don't have anything. That leaves me a fairly steady schedule to stick to of working out and not eating too much.
And I didn't realize it, but I kind of miss running. When I ran, my weight wasn't nearly as all over the place. I was sticking right around 150 (usually lower) but once I stopped running regularly, it's been creeping back up. Now that I have my Touchpad to watching movies on the treadmill, it's really helping to get me to the gym and run. I've been doing intervals, my endurance is shot and I need to build it up again, so speed intervals are my weapon of choice. And I think I need a new inhaler, mine isn't spraying very well since it's kept in my giant purse and probably is somewhat broken. Anyways, no more excuses. "The treadmills are always full at the gym." So... wait for one! "I don't have the energy." Well, muster some up! There are a million reasons not to... and a million reasons why I need to.
And as for food... I think I need to avoid Italian restaurants for a while. I ate entirely too much buttery pasta this weekend. And bread. I need to go back to actually thinking about the nutritional content of the food I'm choosing! Not what looks delicious. I haven't been drinking that much, so that helps.
I know a lot of people who read my blog look to me to be an example of how to successfully lose weight... and keep it off! And I'm still 60 pounds lighter than when I started. But... that number has shrunk a bit. I really need to be accountable, log on MFP what my weight is, and work to get that number down. And with all of you watching and keeping track of me, I can stick to it. Time to step up my game!
I've said this a few times in the last two months, but I really need to make the committment to stick to it. I've gotten used to being thinner. I like looking in the mirror and not hating what I see. But I also know that I can do better. I need to see those 140s again, I'm not about to give up and I still would love to reach my ultimate goal of 140. I just need to focus and go back to what was working for me. Healthy food, lots of INTENSE exercise, and some extra motivation.
Despite that, I had my birthday 2 weeks ago, and I felt more amazing than I have in my life. The photo below says it all... I've NEVER EVER thought I could wear a dress like this. It's just motivation to make it look even more amazing when I likely wear it again on New Years Eve.